Carta nº 43

Diciembre 2010

Confusión.
Una rebeldía ciega a no se sabe qué.
Sentimientos contrapuestos. Ganas de... ganas de algo que no se deja reconocer.
Pieles y voces mezclándose en mi; no me dejan pensar. Una de ellas me da la respuesta.
La respuesta en versos extraños.
No tengo mucho más que decirte esta vez. No sé qué decirte esta vez. Así que te dejo los versos que hablan por mí.

I Saw the gap again today
While you were begging me to stay
Take care not to make me enter
If I do we both may disappear

Know that I will choke until I swallow...
Choke this infant here before me.
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge or strike you down?

But you're
Pushing me, shoving me
Pushing me, shoving me
Pushing me, shoving me
Pushing me, shoving me

Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me

You still love me
You still love me
But you didn't think, pushit on me
You still love me
You still love me
But you didn't think, pushit on me

Rest your trigger on my finger,
bang my head upon the fault line.
You better take care not to make me enter.
'cause if I do we both may disappear.

But your
Pushing pushing me
Pushing pushing me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me!

You still love me
You still love me
But you didn't think, pushit on me
You're pushing and shoving me
pushing and shoving me

I'm slipping back into the gap again.
I'm alive when you're touching me,
Alive when you're shoving me down.

But I'd trade it all
For just a little
Piece of mind.

Pushit on me
Pushit on me
Pushit on me
Pushit on me
Your pushing and shoving
And I'm scrambling
To keep my feet flat on the ground.

I am somewhere I don't wanna be. Here.
Push me somewhere I don't wanna be.
Put me somewhere i don't wanna be.
Seeing someplace I don't wanna see.
Never wanna see that place again.

Saw that gap again today
While you were begging me to stay.
Managed to push myself away,
And you, as well...my dear.

If, when I say I might fade like a sigh if I stay here,
You minimize my movement anyway,
I must persuade you another way.

Pushing and shoving and pushing, shoving me.

There's no love in fear.

Staring down the hole again
Hands are on my back again
Survival is my only friend
Terrified of what may come.

Remember I will always love you,
As I blow your fucking throat away.
It will end no other way.
It will end no other way.

Tuya,

M~